I'm stupid for loving you

I'm stupid for loving you

I'm stupid for loving you. Those words echo in my mind as I try to make sense of the mess you've left me in. I gave you my heart, my trust, my everything, only to be met with betrayal and heartache. I should have known better than to fall for someone like you, someone who never truly appreciated me or valued what we had.

I deserve better than this. I deserve someone who sees my worth, who cherishes me for who I am, not for what I can give them. I deserve someone who doesn't make me feel like I'm constantly walking on eggshells, afraid of saying or doing the wrong thing. I deserve someone who loves me unconditionally, someone who would never dream of hurting me the way you did.

But despite all of this, I can't help but still love you. It's a painful realization, one that I struggle to come to terms with. How could I still care for someone who has caused me so much pain? How could I still long for someone who has shown me time and time again that they are not worthy of my love?

I know I need to let go, to move on and find someone who will treat me the way I deserve to be treated. But it's easier said than done. The memories we shared, the moments of happiness we experienced together, they all linger in my mind, making it hard to let go of the hope that maybe, just maybe, things could be different this time.

But deep down, I know that I deserve better. I deserve someone who will love me wholeheartedly, someone who will never make me doubt my worth or question my value. I deserve someone who will stand by my side through thick and thin, someone who will never give me a reason to feel stupid for loving them.

So as much as it hurts, as much as it pains me to admit it, I know that I need to walk away. I need to let go of the toxic love that has consumed me and find the strength to move on. Because I deserve better, and I won't settle for anything less.